when everyone watch as I gave up
thank you for always being the one
that never give in to my despair.

when i see you
it's like my pain came back tenfold
once more.
fuck you for breaking my heart.

What if I loved all these what ifs away

What if I was made for you and you were made for me
What if this is it, what if it's meant to be
What if I ain't one of them fools just playin' some game
What if I just pulled you close, what if I leaned in
And the stars line up and it's our last first kiss
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How did I not hear this song.
sigh fighting between an existential fomo and being a depressing slob.