sometimes i ponder to myself too much
that it hurts. a lot.
thanks to all those who knew i was upset
and tried cheering me up. which would just be h
and pei pei. still thanks.
nothing much is new, everything is pretty expected.
i guess. wed was nice
went out to eat with italy and germany.
was fun.. just quite ex.
thurs was - bleh. just really.
exams results and choir. such wonderful combination.
friday the last of all days, i did the best i could
but i can't even stand the morning.
was moping around.
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had a dream.
i was scared to the wits of it ever happening
i don't know why, but compared to others that i have,
it seemed pretty real somehow.
i dreamed of the world dying and everything before
but somehow that seemed pretty distant.
sadistic much.
i can still remember her words.
just come home.
and that means a lot to me.
things at home, they just get worse and worse.
i shall try to keep my sanity.
but being in class hasn't been at all well either.
i mean like just because i say no, doesn't mean i
have some problems, and maybe if i did, heck well,
you just wanted to get something from me.

choir being choir, sigh.

i miss pril a lot. at least she knows how to cheer me up

haha, though she doesn't cheer me up, she just be there.

i wonder how she does it sometimes.

i get so sick and tired of your backstabbing.
wait that's not even backstabbing anymore.
that person is right next to me.
you telling the incident to a complete stranger
just screw me from within.
to what extent then? perhaps you're the type
who wants the whole world to side with you
when you're wrong. guess i should have known,

the people that i wish to stay the same, never do

the people that i wish to change, always stay the same.

on a lighter note,

events coming up~

.:cosplay!

.:2 k outing!

.:hotel sleepover!

.:a1 outing! ( finally..)

.:tuition gang outing!

.:going out with jj twins!

.:going out with joyce!

.:might be going over to some people's house to bake!

.:movie!

haha. i wonder when i can squeeze time for homeworks.

still i rather just spend one more,

just once more.

away from all these fakeness

and just once more

bring me back to where

all the tears dried up

and all smiles are genuine.