I felt rather exhausted after the whole ordeal. Swirling deep down,

was that guilt that i could end up doing so horribly i will probably cry buckets.

But of course, I won't. I'll probably just do some weird random thing

till well when all hell broke loose.

I will spend days recuperating after sending my cells to war zone.

But thanks to church friends (: I feel better already.

hahaha. but i doubt i will burn it. It holds too much for me to burn

still. It got to stop. Somehow.

So i'm just gonna get a mental block from any school related stuff till further notice.

Bleh. I really do not want another episode of me screaming, that's what happened in amath i think.

I had that crazy fetish feeling to jump up from my seat and act like a mad woman,

and hopefully they will let me retake, thinking my mental capacity at that point of

time was due to a malfunction. Oh well.

I can't believe though, i'm alienating myself just to make sure it hurts lesser.

Remind me of crucible and chrysalids.

OKAY. I won't talk about it.

Looking forward to tmr!

Ps; Just so to make you happy, i ate duck meat today. bleh.

I knew it sucks. Eating it again just confirm it.