i feel dumb. real dumb.

went home with soul sister~

ahaha. soul sister, we are so smart!

well.. then the mood was totally ruined

when i get back to hh

cannot stand it there.

hw: nothing

stuff to do: lots..

-wp

-bp

-8fl

-3sn

-sss

there. hopefully can get it down by this week

i'm depressed. i'm emo.

my life suck

i'm thinking of disappearing into thin air

oh wait.. must write happy stuff

happy stuff cheer me up

well.. i finish my hw..

i got my present from joey :D

a lollipop... though somehow

even after i ate like 7 yesterday..

i still feel depressed... lollipops.. do your thing...

but i guess i really feel very useless

in everywhere i am.. i guess..

though me being IT rep has been improving

but i still feel useless around my friends..

like i can't do anything to cheer them up

at all. and they always have to worry about me

one word. actually two.

very depressed.

today is horrible

but then like any other day,

my day is always horrible.

haha. actually it was ok la.

just that i had to be the only girl

down in tuition and that all the guys just nod the head

like they understand or something..

horrible people. i bet you just copy down the answers

don't you need to understand how you get the formulas

and blah blah stuff? you don't just copy and paste

what is in the textbook do you?

ahh~ shall emo with grace tmr..

provided she actually comes..

grace, you will come will you?

and DON'T tell anyone else...

you won't be so mean..

beside who will you tell?

ans: no one.

warning: i'm in a very bad mood and vulgarities are used. i do not mean what i say here (because i usually forgive and forget it very easily), no offense taken and that i'm very pissed off.

whatthefuck?!?!?!

freakyoula!!!!

whythehelldidyoudothatfor?!?!?!

fuckoff..whatthefuck?!?!

youknowdamnwellhowsuckyiam..

andstillwhatthefuckputmefreakingincharge?!?!

that's it. you just become my vulgar partner.

so don't ask me next time when i shoot off vulgarities.

cause you freakingly tio sabo me in. so freak off.

today was WONDERFUL!!!

awesome to the max.

caramel is still sick.. of course,

i'm still the heater.. again.. -.-

tata wasn't there when we need her...

sad.. tata, you missed out on a lot of

gossip/bitch talk.

We laughed at with everyone else..

i wonder how i look when i'm trying to give a weird look..

cause my friends are scared of me.. when i give them that look.o.o

i had to be pulled out of the whole sec3s..

drag on stage

and get scolded in front of everyone..

because i was too blur to notice.

gosh. and then we had spot-check

one by one.

Dammit. i had to pin up my bangs

which look retarded!!

Dammit! I WAS FREAKING PISSED OFF!!!

WHAT THE FCUK DID YOU PUT ME IN CHARGE!!!

DAMN YOU!!!! YOU KNOW WELL THAT
I WILL BE JUST STANDING IN ONE SIDE,

WATCHING YOU DO EVERYTHING!!!
GOSH!!! IT MAKES ME BLOODY PISSED OFF
THAT YOU JUST WANT TO MAKE ME FEEL
LEFT OUT! THANKS!

my mood was pretty horrible and did not change even

till the afternoon... of course, i had to go along with

everyone else.. but pretty much was not in the right frame.

then tata and grace thought i was emoing.. i was.. just you know..

and no, i wasn't crying in a toilet..

but i do that.. y'know?

so usually if i'm really depressed,

you know where to find me

well but knowing me.. emoing is just another daily routine.

but i wasn't pissed off with you two y'know?

then it got better when we had dinner..

of course i felt stupid...

but yeah.. it improved. then met joey~

i just realise that it sounded like i'm scolding

someone from choir but i'm not~

i'm pissed off with ATXN

basically two words to describe today: it sucks.

the end.

WOOTS~ will be going out later with jojo

yay~ of course we say we are doing hw..

but hopefully we are.. the last time.. we ended up laughing so much

we only completed 2 pages of science..

will be going anchorpoint to go shopping... i seriously still need to buy gift...

today was ok.. i guess... i guess the only thing i know best is still running away..

but i told tata ardy~ i dunno.. things seemed so awkward now...

and we used to talk hours on phone...

now it looks... so erm... i don't know..

but well if virtual hug is real just like how virtual slap is real..

*HUGS*

to the darling V

i'm so so SO sorry... oh gosh.. i will spend tmr morning with you..

in fact, you better get that apology...

i already beg for forgivness.. so you have to forgive me..

MWAHAHAHA

see... ain't you lucky that i'm spending time with you~

sigh.. really wanna pon school tomorrow..

tralalalala~ probably will just go to school all the same..

my birthday wish like what i always wish for:

__________________________________

^yepp. that's my wish..

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wish that 2g2 finally have an outing..

class-sick....

ahhh~~ you know when most 2g2 have lunch now...

and it's seemed like we are like hanging out together alot..

i miss 2g2... oh well...

grace.... i miss playing whacko at the back of the class

where we all just laugh and play till the teacher comes..

your class... seemed like.... you know what i'm trying to get

got a present from bro.. even though birthday was like what..2 days later...

but honestly... it's kindda ironic.. considering it's little miss sunshine

but like how i'll understand that when i push people away..

all i'm actually doing is hurting them even more.

when the main motive is not to hurt them..

in some kindda way... it's weird huh?

well... had a talk... i dunno.. i think i sounded insincere

since of course, it was kindda planned out or something..

but then again, i really like thank you .. for being

awesome friends.. val and grace

for being there..

of course. grace will be jealous if i write it here... so

yeah. keeping it a secret~