You have no idea what you just did.

Maybe all you did was just say hi.

But it was all that was enough for me.

It makes my thoughts and feelings go away.

You drive me to the corner, where i just realize

What a fool i had been, all these years.

You showed me what i used to be, what i was.

That person that smile so often, it's hard to make her stop

Laughing, the person who rarely get upset, that someone who

Is so full on joy and it seemed nothing get her down.

That was who i was.

I want that girl back.

These years has showed me that

armors are built day by day,

yet it also showed a lot about the people

Where we chose to hide ourselves away

For fear of being hated, rejected

That we stopped being ourselves.

I was so scared that i turned to be one of them

Without realizing i did.

today was quite nice :D first two period is chinese, love my chinese teacher♥ Damn nice. Anyway, finally have lit back! Miss out 2days of lit due to sickness )): anyway, today we talked about ♥. She was so hilarious, saying that we couldn't be lit students, we can't even tell that they were professing their love. HAHA. that really shocked us all, my friend was like " serious? they are kidnapped and still make love???" Choir, the usual. not much to say...

it's only until we face changes, do we cherish the stuff we used to had.

I wanna sing the old Salve Regina!!!!

傻瓜

其实他做的坏事我们都懂

没有什么不同

眼光闪烁 暧昧流动

闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂

没有什么不同

故作软弱 撒娇害羞

只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂

爱得没那么做作

爱上了我不保留

傻瓜 我们都一样

被爱情伤了又伤

相信这个他不一样

却又再一次受伤

傻瓜 我们都一样

受了伤却不投降

相信付出会有代价

代价只是一句傻瓜

i moved again.

for different reasons or so,

i started deleting blogs again.

stuck to this.

today, sick.

gah. the weather is so moody and unpredictable.

leave no more trace of pain,

let the tears be kept

all within.

Though i said i'm closing this one,

but my phone is spoiled.. D:

so don't sms nor call during this period...

i dropped it... in the drain..

~~~

i'm closing this blog~~ whee

we are back to where we started,

yet we won't be the same person we were before.

there were police that came over,

seemed kindda cool and like a scene out of those drama.

great, now i have something to look forward to on monday.

killing grace for the video.

now my brothers are playing with it.

ha ha ha. very funny.

GRACE!!!!!

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as we watched her dance,

we can't help but wonder

why she wore a mask

dancing so gracefully,

we all wish to see the one behind the mask.

as she dance,

with each leap,

each twirl,

every single landing

were executed to perfection.

it was as though

the dancer herself is perfect

and yet we all inch to see the

one behind the mask.

as we continue to watch,

i noticed the person behind the mask

the tears behind the eyes,

she was in pain,

all those dance moves,

they weren't her,

they were so forced,

so unwillingly.

i looked up and try to smile

and tell her it's okay,

but she and i both

know this will be her last show,

her last chance to show the world,

yet till then, she refused to take off

her mask,

hiding behind the mask of her,

doing all the acts of pretense.

i wonder which is the real her,

she hides herself so often,

thinking to herself

that she isn't perfect,

that she overlooks the beauty that lies within her

that she herself with all her flaws,

might not be perfect in her eyes,

but in mine, they will always be.

As she bowed down,

her mask fell,

she tries to put it back,

not wishing people to see her ugliness,

she sat down and tears start to fall.

i stood up,

and clap.

and one by one, every one stood up to clap.

all of them. not for her dance,

but for the beauty that she really is.

okay, i have no idea why i wrote that.

but yep.