Though i said i'm closing this one,

but my phone is spoiled.. D:

so don't sms nor call during this period...

i dropped it... in the drain..

~~~

i'm closing this blog~~ whee

we are back to where we started,

yet we won't be the same person we were before.

there were police that came over,

seemed kindda cool and like a scene out of those drama.

great, now i have something to look forward to on monday.

killing grace for the video.

now my brothers are playing with it.

ha ha ha. very funny.

GRACE!!!!!

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as we watched her dance,

we can't help but wonder

why she wore a mask

dancing so gracefully,

we all wish to see the one behind the mask.

as she dance,

with each leap,

each twirl,

every single landing

were executed to perfection.

it was as though

the dancer herself is perfect

and yet we all inch to see the

one behind the mask.

as we continue to watch,

i noticed the person behind the mask

the tears behind the eyes,

she was in pain,

all those dance moves,

they weren't her,

they were so forced,

so unwillingly.

i looked up and try to smile

and tell her it's okay,

but she and i both

know this will be her last show,

her last chance to show the world,

yet till then, she refused to take off

her mask,

hiding behind the mask of her,

doing all the acts of pretense.

i wonder which is the real her,

she hides herself so often,

thinking to herself

that she isn't perfect,

that she overlooks the beauty that lies within her

that she herself with all her flaws,

might not be perfect in her eyes,

but in mine, they will always be.

As she bowed down,

her mask fell,

she tries to put it back,

not wishing people to see her ugliness,

she sat down and tears start to fall.

i stood up,

and clap.

and one by one, every one stood up to clap.

all of them. not for her dance,

but for the beauty that she really is.

okay, i have no idea why i wrote that.

but yep.

i'm not someone who is good with words,

i smile at things people may find crazy,

i smile at their futile efforts to be perfect.

I wonder why they try so hard to be someone they are not,

they are all perfectionist,

yet i see the cracks, their flaws

i can see deep down they are crumbling inside.

bit by bit, pieces by pieces

as they try hard to hide the tears behind their masks

we all like this, we are so used to acting in front of others,

we are all great actors, all behind a mask.

Yet somehow i wonder

which laughter i'm hearing

which smiles i'm seeing

are the genuine ones.

remember when we were young

we still are, actually

just that we occupy ourselves with

the complication of the world.

we used to have a world of our own

we never have to worry about the dramas

all we have to worry about is whether

the weather will be right for us to play

under the sun.

we have all changed our views.

would i say naive?

i used to wonder why those simple

things can just put a smile in my face.

no more tears

no more acts

yet when we were still that naive

we wished to grow up

to be more mature in our thinking

looking back in the past

used to a daily routine

wondering to myself what exactly went wrong

All the ifs and the buts.

All the maybes and the perhaps.

they all starting to mean nothing.

so what IF that happen,

MAYBE that happen,

look in the mirror

we all hate changes

but we looked at ourselves

in the reflection, we all have changed.

emotionally, physically and in our thinkings.

they say this, they say that

all the opinions of others,

where's yours?

you know what really cheer me up?

talking to either the UN or talking to my juniors.

They are seriously full of crap.. haha jk.

haven't update for awhile... it's just that every time i come home, i would just be so exhausted after choir practices that all i feel like doing is just lying on the bed all day long and sleep. Genius kept me company of course, quacking all day long.

oh well, H is still trying to figure out who is person b.. continue guessing -baka-

some conversation that kept me smiling till now.

Me: you haven't heard of westlife?

gosh.

-smacks-

H : meh!!! she's so evil~~ aha!! here comes the tissue!! blooddd!!!!

Me: -scream- get away!!!

N and A : Have you heard of eastlife?

me : no...

N and A : -gasp- where have you been all your life?

H and I : -.-

few minutes later~

H : whose b??

me : figure out yourself, baka

H : me no baka!! you more baka!!! hmm... is it carmen?
me: no... why would you think it is carmen? wait. how do you even know carmen?

H: cause you are always screaming at the top of your voice over shouting for carmen, like you own the whole world and always running, jumping around with her! and you admitted you have an affair with her!!

and of course i told carmen,

and she just went huh? really meh? that used to be last time lor, now we so innocent.

then i was like remember those times we just run about like who knows what business and just go around linking arms?

carmen: ya lor.

me: sigh, i should have told my junior you are cheating behind my back with a senior ( guess who~)

carmen : NO LOR. tsk..

and that's how i managed to cheer up.

i swear if he do that again, he doesn't have to invite me out, i will invite myself out.

please give me strength to last till the day is over.

i really don't know how i'm gonna last today.

at this rate, maybe i will go stay over at someone's place

give me at least till today is over to decide

i hate seeing the way he is turning out.

when had he turn out this way?

i don't know, now even staying at home, sick as ever,

i still have to put with all these.

really felt like running.

it's the only thing i have always know how to do.

I was borrreddd.
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: coffee
2. Last phone call: Claudia!
3. Last text message: Claudia!
4. Last song you listened to: Musician- D. Gray man
5. Last time you cried: thursday
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: nope
7. Been cheated on: yep
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: I don’t kiss
9. Lost someone special: Yes
10. Been depressed: always
11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Purple
13. Green
14. White/black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend: Yes

16. Fallen out of love: Nope

17. Laughed until you cried: Yes

18. Met someone who changed you: Yes

19. Found out who your true friends were: still thinking

20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Nope

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: All?

23. How many kids do you want to have: -

24. Do you have any pets: Yes

25. Do you want to change your name: changed it. (:
26. What did you do for your last birthday: celebrated it with the 3

27. What time did you wake up today: 7?

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: tumblr!

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: gasp. choir

30. Last time you saw your Mother: wed

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: me being born

32. What are you listening to right now: the noise outside

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Nope.

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: mood swings

35. Most visited webpage: Tumblr. Blogger.

36. Whats your real name: LWT

37. Nicknames: duck. Ducky. Daffy.daph. jie. Daffy duck
38. Relationship Status: it’s complicated

39. Zodiac sign: Capricorn

40. Male or female?: Female.

41. Elementary?: -

42. Middle School?: -

43. High school/college?:-

44. Hair colour: Black

45. Long or short: shoulder length
46. Height: 160.5

47. Do you have a crush on someone?: yes

48: What do you like about yourself?: my dumbness

49. Piercings: Ear.

50. Tattoos: None








1. What Color Is Your Toothbrush
blue
2. Name One Person That Made You Smile Today
-

3, What were you doing at 8 AM?
just woke up

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago?
having a fight

5. What is your favorite candy?
LOLLIPOP

7. What's the last thing you said out loud?
hmm… get lost?

8. What is the best ice cream flavor?
Cookie & cream!! LOVE

9. What was the last thing you had to drink?
coffee

10. What is the longest you have gone without sleeping?
hmm… 23 hr

11. Have you ever made a promise you'd die to keep?
yes

13. The last sporting event you watched?
sports carnival

14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn?
both sweet and salted

15. Who is the last person you sent a message to on Facebook?
grace chong

16. Ever go camping?
yep

17. Do you take vitamins daily?
No

18. Do you go to church every Sunday?
No

21. Do you drink your soda with a straw?
No

22. What did your last text message say?
OI! TWO MORE SECOND TO ONE HOUR.
24. Where is your dad?
Work I guess.

25. Look to your left, what do you see?
tuning forks

26. What color is your watch?
black and red

27. I think this one is empty...


28. What did you do yesterday?
choir.

29. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
fast food!

30. What is your favorite number?
7

31. Who's the last person you talked to on the phone?
Claudia!

32. Any plans today?
we are planning something…

34. Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
mood swings

35. Last song listened to?
Musician – D.Gray man

36. Can you say the alphabet backwards?
HAHA. I will stumble

38. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
red and black slippers

39. Are you jealous of anyone?
no.

40. Is anyone jealous of you?
yes

41. Do you love anyone?
Yes

43. What do you usually do during the day?
depends. I think every day is so whacked up that nothing is normal
44. Do you hate anyone that you know right now?
I don’t hate

45. Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
Yes

46. Meaning of life?
nothing

47. Do you like cats?
yep.

48. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
No

49. How did you get your worst scar?
my brother poke a pencil into my leg and the lead broke in.

50. Last big talk?
hmm… yesterday?

51. Last CD played?
westlife!

52. Last bubble bath?


54. Last meal?
Biscuit

55. Have you ever dated someone twice?
No

56. Gone on a date?
No

57. Have you ever fallen in love?
Yes

58. Have you ever lost someone?
Yeah

59. Have you ever slept until 1PM?
Yep

60. Have you met a famous person?
Yep

61. Do you have at least 2 people you can tell pretty much anything to?
Yep

62. List three favorite colors/shades:
Purple. Green. Black/white

63. Laughed until you cried?
yes

64. Went behind your parents back?

yes
66. Opinion on gay marriage?
-
67. Lowering the drinking age?
no.

69. Who are the best huggers that you know?
soul sister. V. hmm.. and someone

70. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Not really

71. Is there something you want to tell someone?
Yes

73. Would you kiss any of your facebook friends?
haha. Maybe~

74. How Many Kids Do You Want To Have?
0

75. Do you want to change your name?
change it

76. Last time you saw your father?
yesterday
77. What time did you wake up today?
7.30

78. How old are you?
15

79. What were you doing at midnight last night?
TUMBLR

80. What is your favorite thing in your room?
genius. <3

i just realise how many hw i have

2 chemistry worksheet

a math worksheet

a math 8.1

e math tys

english comprehension

physics worksheet

2 chinese compre

2 chinese compo

e learning kinetic model

phrasebook

eng compo

pe project

4 chinese newspaper cutting

study ss british healthcare

1 essay lit

2 unseen prose qsn

8 chinese compre exercise

sigh.. and despite all this, i have only 3 days which i'm free.

GAH.

and yet, i still have all the mood in the world to be depressed.

life rocks. waiting for 9. glee

ok... sorry lp for not calling before you left..

honestly when i came home, i was dead tired. still, i'm sorry ok!!!

duh, i'll miss you... haha. ya la.. you want to be the only one right?

today, we had choir. i guess major stuff happen.

GRACE IS COOL

haha. everyone felt so. i mean it's so unexpected and like everyone just grew silent.

but still deep inside, it is clearly shown the cracks of flaws, and once there are too many holes,

it might be hard to patch it and will we then continue making sure it stays or let it crumbles and

fall apart. yet i really can't see anything we can do to solve it. but let's face it, at this rate we are going, all we do is crash into a wall. maybe then we will see that we aren't all that superior, we make mistakes. mistakes make, had we ever learn from them? it seemed only just yesterday that everything just start falling apart.

ok. i think i should stop rambling

me : i think i'm going crazy..

wait didn't i already establish that fact? AHAHAHHAHA.

that was how yesterday had been. plain crazy.

it's amazing. my friend just kept laughing non-stop...

her facial muscles hurt! YAY

serious, even just saying my name is enough to make her laugh..

WOOOO~~~ DAPHNE!!!!~~~~ WHOOO~~~

haha... to those who saw the pic, they are laughing at me in that ridiculous outfit....

hmmm... next time, i will wear feathers... hahaha.. damn high now!!