i take few step forwards and many leap backward
it always feel like this dance
i can't seem to keep up with the tempo
I'm not sure whether having you close to me is a mistake

but the most fucked up thing was that
you have mattered so much to me
that this incident
just drove me to my knees
on how much you meant to me
and i just can't begin to tell you
just how much i have tried. again and again.

to push it out of my mind.
i blame myself for the incident
there is this insecurity that now i can't shake away

are you still my love for the lifetime?