You know how some places have memories that just hold you in them
I was there, and it almost felt like yesterday
Yesterday where you took your flight back
where I was still in your life
a portion of it where I still was there to send you away
where we bid goodbye to our brief fleeting moments
it was one of the longest day I felt
surrounded by everyone we knew yet no one was
aware of the agreement we had
the clock ticks, and even though it felt like
I could have left at any point
my feet just would not let me
maybe it was yesterday where at the moment
you were there, at the right time,
where I was breaking, and I just could not
do anything beside cry and blame myself
for everything. Where you understood,
you understood how it felt where no one
was able to be, I was contented to
just be with someone that felt lonely and
as cast away as I
That the feeling was mutual, to the point I was consumed
with the belief that this is okay, that I could
be not okay, with you, just you. I was so relieved that I
let everything slide, and the convincing afterwards
that you were not the person that I once knew
I wanted to be lost with you, to drown in it
but I was not at peace, your little remarks always
find their way to worm in, and my insecurities
start to show
I was locked inside a dream where for a brief moment
the world did not had to matter, and the secret
between us became my source that kept me there
it was the saddest yesterday where I admitted
after you gave me one last hug
the things we do for love, I spoke aloud
that I realise I did love you in my own ways,
and you did not
you did not love me back