A starting promise

I'm posting at unearthly time, but oh well.

I had not realized i was easily to read.

But you looked through me, despite the smiles I feigned.

I have no idea how much tears were shed today.

Or how many times i fell,

but i gritted my teeth just to get through most of it.

I haven't realized i closed up so much.

Each grin hurts. Each it's fine is a stab to me.

But i can't let you see the weak side of me,

I know how people say it's okay to let your guard down

and be yourself. But i just can't get past the stage.

I cry, but i won't cry in front of people.

so long as i haven't break, i can keep going on and on.

No matter how difficult it gets. But sometimes,

it gets too painful to get up, and that's when the blood swirl

and i stared at the stains I had caused.

I have no idea why people say i'm strong,

or a steel willed personality.

I'm not strong,

I seek strength to go through my life

and i am definitely blessed by the care

showered upon me like falling rain.

Give me awhile to make it alright.

I remembered your words.

Every single one of them.

I said i will keep them.I will.

Pinky promise.