You.

pain
rips me apart
from inside out
screaming at me
to feel its hurt

pain
force me to remember
each moment
and lies
mocking me
to forget
knowing I can't

pain
leave me breathless
insomniac
and gasping for
any form of relief
no appetite
nor mind would still

pain
pounding into me
refusing to let go
and demanding me
to feel

pain
urging me to lose
control and break
to fall apart
and shut down

pain
was when I thought
i would be okay
when i was not

pain
was you.