Feels

we were licking wounds
as though we could heal the other
picking on scabs, inflicting more pain on the scars.

you are hopeful, your moods i thought i was handling
i had wished for nothing but the best for you
yet it felt like i was speaking but no one listening
your concerns i took,
my woes, my sorrows
you trampled.

we stood by each other
drowning in alcohol and sorrow
there was many times i thought
this was it
but how was it that a few nights
tore apart everything.
did i never once know you?

i got my wishes
as i stood on the outside
of your world
walls fenced up
as you stood on the mighty chair
as i feed on the scraps you sometimes throw

you left that one day
without a word to me
yet an essay to others
you left that day
bringing my trust with you.