kindda high today.

well that is before choir... i think i was still semi-high during sectionals bah. :)

the juniors are bullies

looking forward to thurs and sun~ yay.

carmey the caramel will be competing then. shall cheer for her

and laugh at with her if the same thing happen again.

was kindda scary when today, only 4 ppl handed in their hw.. including me.

surprise. surprise.

fatin gang up with mop!! eep. look back at the state of my hair...

mel was giving me weird looks as i just cheer along... haha. such spoiler.

we cheer damn loud for our class chair <>

i really glad i came today.

the juniors are really loving a1 a lot...

well, there was one who was like a1 is where all the wacky seniors are..

tee hee hee. i'm not wacky, i'm nice. (glare) i'm nice. admit it.

today's peeleeney birthday~
yay! was sick yesterday...
kindda freaked out when i coughed out blood...
didn't wanna come to school at all today... :(
still drag myself out.. and ranice was complaining
all the way to school.. ^^
i look at her with panda eyes... black eyes o.o
kindda scary... kindda grateful i don't take her combin.
i'm tutoring a math and chi~
haha. though i really need help in e math..
stupid graphs.
oh. felt so bad leaving et to lead by herself..
sigh.. can't more people actually turn up for things
they are supposed to turn up for?

went bowling. damn fun!

i won~ though it didn't even reach the 100th score.. but

still it was nice.. brr.. damn cold there.

they keep screaming when i try to touch them

with my freezing hands. their hands are so warm o.o

then received her sms, which got me real worried.

hope she's ok. jiayou!

thurs we had court case!

2 in one day!!

joanne failed as a judge, she keep

screaming at everyone to shut up and

even at the camera man.

hopefully the video is not uploaded..

cause really it's sooooooo -

going k soon~ yay.

the last was fun. though

i doubt the people i went out with

will still wish to go but never mind~

thurs going out with carmey.

ps. she's still trying to emo.. but really..

i been telling her she's can't emo.

but she's still trying.

Carmen says:
*ok
*im emoing!!!
*yay!
daphne says:
*sure
you are
Carmen says:
*YAY!
*grin
daphne says:
*you don't
tell ppl you are emoing for pet's sake
*and you don't do smiley fae
*nor
say yay
*i think you just change the whole meaning of emoing
Carmen
says:
*i am not emoing. *sad face* :(
*haha!
*can? exact opp.!

thanks carmen for cheering me up today.
failing in trying to emo.
oh well she is teaching me to be happy
and i'm teaching her emo 101; well
not really successfully considering
she is such a failure in it.
not that i want her to emo.
thanks pril for being there
you have always been the best SL ever. et too of course
will miss you a lot. like seriously.
you talk to me when i'm down and i think
you are probably the closest ever in the section.
love ya. *hugs*
thanks a lot to grace for understanding and giving me the best advice ever
well. you have always without fail been there for me.
thank you thank you thank you
*hugs* though you don't like hugging.
but still.


thanks for all those who cheer me up today :)
being the sunshine among my rainy days

i'm seriously in a mood of just breaking down.

happy birthday v.

ok. i'll just rant over here.

thanks for always being there, knowing me the best.

i have known you for 8 years now.. gosh.. that's sound old..

well, love you always. cherish those time i have with you,

though for some reason, you have turned too clean...

you always know when things are wrong.

do stupid things which sometimes i really feel like hitting you. hard.

but still, you cheer me up when i'm down.

if i ever did anything wrong, well perhaps the only thing

that would be is to break the promise.

you will keep your end won't you?

remember the song - remember?

it's a nice song, i guess it was one

of the only few songs i actually remember

singing with you, and thanks for being the one

who make me join choir. and although i was the one

who stuck on all these years, without you nor ash,

somehow it's always nice to remember the times

we sing together, though we will sometimes be

laughing and crying through those days.

and yes, when i say i'm not crying, i mean it.

i'm not crying.

times change everything, and though

i still don't believe that there is that one

you used to know but i will find her,

somehow, ask her what has made her changed.

what has changed that happy-go-lucky girl

to one that hardly smile now?

perhaps she has grown afraid and doubt

just about everything, including the people

around her as she was scared they might one day leave her

and she just decided not to let herself be caught in that

position, perhaps that's what happen.

Smiles. Hello, would you like to donate?
That’s how I spend today. My face aches from smiling so much… but then today was awesome! Went with soul sister~ yay… morning was not really pleasant but not like it hasn’t happened before. So when to collect tin can and just go around asking for donation. At first, i just want to sit down till the whole thing is over and give an empty tin back but i just went with soul siter. Then I first got my first 2 dollars note, was so happy. I think I’m weird. Went to library… haha. We were so mean, we were like got family, got children, can extort a lot of money one… but seriously the kids were adorable. There was one who sang right in front of my face, nobody nobody but you. Of course, there is still others which just melt your heart. Then finish one page of stickers, was jumping up and down... haha. We were just happy and took a break, then came bitching session. Haha. Then just went to jp and found et! Her tin can was heavy. . o.o but she didn’t take break. It was like we went all around boon lay, went to safra, where we sort of trespass (but then aht is a member, so to her, it’s not really trespassing), where I ask people to donate and they dump the money to soul sister...so weird. I hate crowds seriously, they just rush down to you and you get so dizzy plus you have to sortha shout and ask whether they wish to donate which et refers to it as me being scary and scaring them away. O.o I’m not scary. As how I have repeatedly told my juniors who still don’t believe my age. Well, it’s not like people have accurately tell my age either, I have people telling me I’m p5 or p6 on one end and 21 at the other end… anyway back to the point, not scary. At all. I’m very nice :D there are people which are downright irritating but there are always others who make your day, like it’s so sweet somehow people just come approached you and give you money. Did nothing stupid, well if i did, i didn't remember. I love today a lot. I can’t remember how long since I smiled. Well, smile for the sake for smiling.

was chatting with carm and found out that i can't tell time. great

oh well... yesterday wasn't really as bad as i make it sound to be..

just that i was really in a foul mood.

got a lollipop yesterday :)

sang like the past choir songs in canteen with april.. band ppl

was staring... but i think the nicest had to be amazing grace.

gave her present. well not literally give it to her..

but still give it to her... well..

choir well -

then talk to joyce till way past midnight...

was reading lock and key~ nice book.

went over to evil line's house and

freaked ama out. haha. she's so easily

scared..

oh well remind me of hasee..

and then that incident where she absolutely grew

scared of me emoing.

teach me another lesson.. don't emo too much.

hate today. hate it a lot.

don't ask me why, i just do.

i just been taught the hard way about things

and you know what, i just wish

that i was not that weak, people

were staring at me in the train. dammit

thanks so much. when i needed you the most, you disappeared.

and all i wish i had done was just standing down there stupidly

looking at trees or sky to make me better. thanks for teaching me this.

i'm just some nobody in your life and that replaceable. thanks.

you make my day wonderful.

going to watch alice in the wonderland. finally.

oh well..

just came back and please don't let me die tmr...

though i wish to die early but really.. not tmr..

ugh... this is just so like me...

well. somehow it seems i managed to fool no one but myself

by putting on a mask, but then again.

i don't think anyone realize or perhaps no one bother.

i really don't know. perhaps i'm going too emo

for my own good. but somehow i wish now instead of

having just people stabbing you, and hating you.

just once, i wish ----------------------

may then i be brave to tell you

what's wrong or perhaps then i will just put a smile

and tell you everything's fine like every body i have lied to.

god. why do i even bother writing this.. perhaps

i'm just weird

rip it from peipei's blog

ok,i shall so a quiz found on shannon's blog(:

Q)Would you marry the person you last texted ?
(april) nah. she has a lover (ET!)

Q)What did you do today?
sing.

Q)What is one fact about the last person who called you?
(ziyu) she's a qm

Q)How old were you when you lost your first tooth?

seven

Q)Last time you were on the phone?
about few hours ago

Q)How many e-mail addresses do you have?
a lot.

Q)Last time you washed your hair?
in the evening

Q)Do you like Oreos?
yes. love it :)

Q)Can you ice skate?
nope

Q)Do you have a brother?
yes. two evil devils

Q)Do you know how to change a diaper?
nope

Q)Do you keep a planner?
yepp. don't use it though

Q)What kind of mood are you in?
emo. depressed. suicidal. weird

Q)Do you take out the trash?
yes. sometime

Q)What's the best part about being single?
being free

Q)Do you watch "The Hills"?
nope

Q)What are you thinking about right now?
promises.

Q)Wearing any bracelets?
nop

Q)What are you doing now?
msning, doing this quiz, watching my sister's keeper and reading someone's blog

Q)Who was the last person that helped you stop crying ?
erm... can't remember cause

1) i don't tell people when i'm crying

2) they just let me cry

kindda weird. but yep. a quiz nonetheless

eyes sting. head hurts. fever gone which is a good thing, i guess.

went out with jojo! yay. took neoprints.. though look damn gay

and i can't really smile.

then got lost in the middle of nowhere.

somehow i hope things will change. ah... i hope it does.

is it possible that i give you part of mine for you to continue yours?

life goes on whether you wish it to or not. though i wish

that you will at least be happy.. i guess

got 1 lollipop yesterday
yay. lalala..
today is et's birthday~~
damn weird... went over and gave a hug..
btw.. i don't give hugs.. rarely do...
though i don't mind giving hugs to the a1~
they are the awesome one!
was super high yesterday during sectional
promoting the high part..
the conductor say i'm violent..
yay.. hope they like the cards i make..

the first picture was drawing a duck and a cat.

cause duck - me~ cat-clawdear!

second picture was the one with a lot of butterflies

and look very empty with tiny words squeezed in the middle.

third was the card make for et~

with a penguin ( random but done for clawdear~)

a picture of her and WE LOVE>

fourth just prove my point on WE LOVE>

there are still paper butterflies all around my room..
though i should include a magnifying glass next time
i write to someone. lala. that'll be susan bah.. her birthday tmr~
learning how to play somewhere out there and musician..
somehow even hearing your name affect me.
great. just why do i even bother so much?

somehow i should learn never to say hi at all..

cause it's so weird saying hi when people

throw daggers back at you.

but then i should probably have expected it no?

if there's one thing i learn
it's that you shouldn't torture yourself
for people who don't care.
live for the people who care and the people you care.
should tell you straight in the face..
don't give me all the damn..
great. you just spoiled my day.
shall go listen to the song that my teacher use to teach me
about life. it always cheer me up.
got 2 lollipops yesterday. yay~ cheer me up after
my horrible results. sectionals too cheer me up a lot.
i think somehow i begin to love life

this is so great.
i'm hating today a lot already. screw today.
this is damn stupid. i don't get this whole freaking world.
dammit. i wish i was mean.. then i will scream at every
single one i'm pissed off.
oh great. now i have to go for some stupid leadership crap
which i have no idea why i need to go. cause i'm ain't a freaking leader.
ah. i feel like just screaming at someone but oh i just realize
there is no one i can scream at cause you know why?
no one care nor bother about such things.
i think i'm gonna start ranting and crapping about some shit
i will just be very evil and bitchy which will just make matters worse.
great. today just can't get any better

has been really tiring this week..
just finish putting up pictures on my wall..
it's looks nice... but miss g2 a lot..
lj yesterday had just been crap.
i don't know, a jigsaw puzzle that doesn't fit anywhere
i guess..
been lacking sleep.. things weren't the same as they used to be
i don't know whether that is supposed to be good but i feel sad
that they are not the way they were in the past.
i guess you just have to embrace the fact that change is always with us.
we change. sometimes we change so much,we can hardly be the same person
as we once were and the things we used to do might not be the same now.
i miss the times we had together. why did all these have to change?
why?

musician~
i'm in love with it.. nat play it while we were having a break
archery was... yeah.. shan't bother explaining.. it's just-
going to have sectionals tomorrow. crap.
i hope it goes well..
darling key, stop playing hide-and-seek with me.
i'm gonna die if i can't find you so
can you please come out from wherever you're hiding?

today has just been hell..
hell in house. hell in school.
tell me again,
somehow it seems as though that
there is no meaning to doing things anymore
and you're just here for only one purpose

went over to v's house today
later meeting with joyce...
was so funny. just now was trying to depress
the baby in her house..
telling her the world will end and how life is very unfair.
then jojo called and let's just say something funny crop up
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MtN1YnoL46Q
the duck song!