I'm grieving for my lost voice.

Today seemed like miles apart.

Rush of wind blew my hair into frenzy

Breathing began to hasten at

irregular beats.

Errands after errands came,

it just blew one into this hole,

where i literally feel super tired at the end of it all.

Sight grew blurry,

but still i went for church :D

iLife. iForgive. iAccept. iServe.

Living life God's way

Today is just a day

where i should have stayed home

to rest and then go church :D

Almighty love

I'm not alone
No longer afraid
With You
By my side

Days grew old
Time has flown
But Your love
Will never fail.

All I have is
You, by my side.

Awe so mighty love
Awe so mighty heart
With You
We'll soar

When we fail,
You will be there
To bring us up

Awe so mighty love
Awe so mighty heart
With You,
We'll soar

When we fall
You will be there
To take us
through it all

Far and beyond
Lay Your love

Awe so mighty love
Awe so mighty heart

I never expected myself to enjoy today

Really very fun today :D

Running here and there,

bursting into laughter,

with not so familiar faces

yet the same nostalgic hit me.

hee.

Choir surprisingly was fun ttm.

I actually felt more into the songs

this time. Memorize done.

Still don't think we would ever be ready

Went out with V.

Laughing hysterically

and making weird noises.

I had thought i will never

had such again such memories.

Then again, you're not my world.

2 more days and my throat isn't

getting better. At this rate,

I'm going straight to church

It wasn't a cruel joke,

it was just another test to see

whether I will put faith in You.

Like any other fights I had,

I always run to You,

pleading with You to take it all away.

You know those cheesy lines

where they say their world crash.

mine didn't. thank God.

It just hailed, massive ice blocks.

Pardon the style, i tend to use it

when i'm upset, and

it usually means writing poems.

which i did. 3 of them.

though the themes were

rather morbid and sadistic,

oh well.

it just popped up.

If i look into Your eyes,

Will i see my past flash

Before Your eyes

Will I open up to You

But i know.

You have come,

Once again,

To show me all that You could.

You have come,

With all Your love

to walk me through it all.

Your never ending love

Make me fell to my shame

Of my sins.

I will never choose to conceal

I will never choose to run

I will always put in in Your faith

You have come

Once again

To show me all that You could
You have come

With all Your love

To walk me through it all.

I'm weak, yeah

But Your love bring me high

I'm weak, yeah

But my faith in You

will never erase.

You have come

To show me all that You could

You have come

With all your love

To walk me through it all.

Jesus, I belong to You.

Piece of papers, marked in black ink, written all over the place, it used to carry meaning, doesn't it?

I lay on my desk, eyes shut,the world zoom forward. I look up with, river flowing down.

I just stared at the emptiness and the irony of all things.

An aged old candle, standing tall,

its flame burning, so painfully.

Its warmth and light

to people, it might seemed not much

but to a person who had lived her life in darkness

it had mean as a support to her.

Yet as she clung on,

she was stung by the wax.

Time and time again.

What if she had mistook the flicker of the light

It had been her tormentor

and her savior.

So she comes to a halt,

her burns, those are scars.

yet, she still hold on,

till the last flicker.

Then she realize

she was the mockery of it all.

Results were horrible.

Choir.. I don't know..

It's seemed like right now,

i'm scared of myself, in fact.

That i will blow up one day

like a dynamite.

Yell out all the frustration,

and just break down.

Then there were times I just

think i should curl up,

the vulnerability inside,

and put on an empty shell.

Light in You

We have come

Because of You

You have shown us the light

We can see.

You have shown us mercy

We can be saved.

Your endless love

Was what kept us going.

The world will fall

Yet we will still be here,

For we know,

That You know,

We will soar.

Beyond the horizons.

No matter the fall.

I see You

I see You

I put my faith in You

With all my heart,

Jesus, You are the light

That shine through all the storm

Your fire burns

Lit by Your love

We are saved

I'm sortha having this thing going with brother in law.

to make sure that i don't use that word... and the money goes

to the treat i'm treating her :D so right now it's 40cents. D:

Time spent were rather on the journey there, yet we have our fun

so no complains there.

Ok.... some updates...
I'm currently booked for this 2 weeks :D

Today was funny and touching.

A friend complimented me on my singing :)

She's so honest and direct, to hear anything nice was just..

(though i though i screwed up and sounded pitchy)

had talks and talks... it's rather draining.

I realized i tend to look too attentively...

the speaker just threw his attention at me..

and i was like okay...

Next talk,

was funny cause meena and brother in law,

was supposed to help me find out what animal i am..

they had so many comments~~

So i'm a lamb...

minus calm and quiet... which is really (Y).

Class pictures were awesome!!!

Though it's going to cost a bomb...

going out with them, and we're going to scream

our lungs out...

"wait.. did you just put on braces.."
"uh no.."

"when did you put on.. last month?"

"uhh.. last yr april.."

Greek, you rock.

let's play see saw and scare Germany out next time.

I'm in love with mel's song. Who You Are

I let v listen, she agreed it's nice!

yay~~

just today we were talking about is it possible

to get the both world of money and happiness,

and during chinese tuition, i really got quite

a shock. Cause the passage itself was on that topic.

It's not the first, i just didn't really take much notice

of it.. but hope that it's You trying to communicate to me.

these days i just find writing poems so much more meaning

maybe it's caused I try doing it with You by my side.

Going to church this week. Excited!

Result tomorrow Groan.

Choir... no words.

Musical Evening in 1 month time.

A song always say many words,

It speaks for itself more than anything.

Tears sprung the wells,

the dried up season

long thought to have turned to bitter cold.

Yet something inside burns even more,

the fire consume it,

Realization never struck harder,

how much You meant to me.

You see me through,

even when I had foolishly

led my path away.

I was found back

Through Your constant urge

I begin to seek

I begin to understand

A song brought forth what

was deep inside.

Not written out of consideration

Just held deep within

the season that had turned

the well that had dried

I begin to see

More of what You

want me to.

You taught me so much

Yet hungry I am,

thirsting for Your every word

The songs that sang praise to You

The people that has changed their lives

Because of You.

This is my words.

My praise for You,

Lord.

-amen-

it seems without caffeine one can't go far anymore.

But surprise, i went all the way to 4am.

I know i say it a lot of times,

but it seemed that this time i'm more willing to give

it all the very best to move on.

"Life's a race, there is never a time to look back,

but it's okay to take short break in between"

I seek the Lord that He will go through it with me,

I do not seek Him to take it all away,

I know that some things are not to be taken away,

I just pray to have the strength to go on,

Lord, I know that if I have a chance, I will

relive my life, with nothing to change,

For I know each and every one of them

is sent by you so that I will be stronger as a person.

Thanks Lord for always being with me,

even though I had not recognized You till now.

Your love and mercy for all of us is boundless,

Lord, thank you.

-Amen-

Been having weird dreams.

"btw, does my dream make me feel like i'm a psychopath?"

"YES."

"-.-"

such friends

"wait till next year, i will be struggling like crazy and I have syf to deal with"

"Muahahahahha"

"LOL. Devil horns pointing out"

"Ya! On your head! I knew it"

I'm looking forward to going out! :D