Trust is a

-double edged sword

- a piece of paper

-a mirror

-a candle

-an onion

Today drained me out.

Somehow I feared that this would be how we end it.

And i was the cause of it, and i couldn't do anything

to make it better. But words said can't be retraced.

I meant each and every word i say.

People hurt all the time and we just have to find those

who are worth the hurt.

Hurt people hurt people.

Learn that in church.

you probably never knew the tears that had been shed

i ran out of energy to convinced you otherwise.

Perhaps This is it.

But i never wanted it to end this way.

I'm not them. Why can't you believe me just once?

What irritates me the most is the fact

that i can't even tell others why I'm even feeling this way.

The unmixed sadness, had it all started with the memories

which always end in tears. I don't know why

but things are getting better, but the more they are

the more i have to hide. And to know i have to hide is

making me even more upset. The whole complexity of it all

I had told her so

When the doors start closing one by one,

that's when the real horror starts.

As voices creep in one by one

threatening to drown the very self in.

Silence begun to play its tune

The walls are closing in

can anyone hear

Banging on the walls

Trying to get out

but too afraid to even try

She can't hear,

She screams

When the doors closed

The horror begun

Chained by promises

Burdened by one own tears

No one can hear you dear.

Don't bother.

All the whimpers.

They serve no purpose

See that girl

I told her so

She will end up this way

If she had only listen

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DI DI

The day before 11-11

I was stood up.. for a very long time.

I took from Green to Red to Green to Purple

Congratulation to me. I actually wore a dress

Disgusting.

We had like a plan lor!

go daiso get rubber band.. and a box.

Eattttt cause i was hungry. the pics are epic (Y)

onion rings~~~
super funnn.... :D

Went pet shop and i think i was squealing too much..

but the hamsters were adorable..

Then i guess we just walk around,

and took pictures.

HAHAHHA But i love the part where we

just sat on the wooden boards and start

drawing. (:

Seem pretty short to describe how that day went

Starting to learn song from secret garden.

Choir was funny today.

HEEE.

Ate cookie and cream cake. super nice :D

Winny-ism~

I think i freaked out when Em just came up to me

and said duck. daffy duck.

I think i scream too much.. which really didn't help my voice at all.

Section is getting more bonded :D Though i think it's more of

the same people coming every single time.

I think i started having a coughing fit.

the whole altos were like looking at me..

cause i think i really had difficulty breathing

and my cheeks were pink, eyes tearing. the usual.

Sat down for awhile before the conductor caught me sitting down.

Apparently she didn't heard my cough at all.

They were like laughing lor.

Afterwards, it's just been me trying to disturb the juniors

and the conductor keep asking me to do something about my cough.

But she praise me today :D Super happy.

Said my singing was quite good when i'm not coughing. -___-

Heeee then caramella just spend the journey home

arguing whether i was having an affair.

Love today. tally : 16 need to sell : 5 more

8more days. Please let my cough get better.

1 thing I learn today.

+Accepting is one thing. Pretending you accept when you haven't is another. That's being hypocritical.

A chess piece is a chess piece.

In this black and white world,

It just serves its purpose,

to be used and even used as a sacrifice.

To serve its player its only use.

To win.

What then if the chess piece turn against its player?

Really tired. will post abt what happened soon.

But went out with brother in law.

Was fun nonetheless.

She actually managed to make

me do the impossible.

I learn two things today

+Jealousy is a sin

+Expectations destroy everything.

I've been trying hard. But i realise the harder

i try, the more i pin to myself that i would be able

to achieve.

Slight disappointment would just caused me

to falter.

Because of you

I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side

So I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust

Not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

I had fun today. Yes, fun do come with choir.

I just forget that it actually exists.

But it was nonetheless.

The chat during lunch, the attempt to do court case

to serve as a pleasure, I miss those days.

The warm ups, where we go around

jumping, singing with all our might

cheeks flushed.

The sectionals. Our hysterical laughters

Trying to bring our voice forth

and sing the impossibly high notes

keeping in pulse and in tune.

Concert positions. How we argue

But it bring back so much

Carrying keyboards.

Touched once again.

Hands working together.

The journey home would

always change

Tug of war ensued.

10 more days.

新推陈新。惦记只是提醒

还是能把我从白云中

掉下来的，还是一样。

只有一句，而那时

我已走而不回头

I just realise this blog has been one year old.

Congrats me. I have a blog that long which

i haven't delete.

HAH to the stalkers
( if there is still any left.. but the usage

of stalker has been exploited and used usually by people

who think too highly on themselves shown on urban

dictionary. check it up)

Been having many powerful encounter with God.

Ohh... and been trying to follow HBHM. which hasn't been working at all.

Sorry rach and mel.

But seriously, it's freaking me out till it even came in my dream..

eating maple syrup with berries... which is probably

caused by mel making me eat cereal. I'm serious.

Though i think my dreams are always weird

and usually there are always links,

if i was thinking of someone, or have a fight,

you usually have a higher chance in my dreams..

and i was complaining about sleeping earlier yesterday

but no choice, a promise is a promise.
Plus i would get killed by pril.

Then there is wearing wigs.

I think i cannot and will not look nice in those.

I tried like that time, one day stand with italy

which is horrible. we just end up laughing at

the epic fail of me wearing it, and

jojo freaking out.. thinking we fainted in the toilet.

Decided to keep it long~~ A promise between

brother in law and me.

Seriously we should be twins instead.

We share the same taste for so much stuff.

Music. Clothes. Accessories.

Best of all, she became like my daily update feeder.

Like a manual twitter.. then again,

i don't tweet so much.. and the only reason

i actually use twitter now is well.. lifegroup.

other than that, i prefer sms and msn.

Which suit me just fine, since there is no word limit and all.

Count down with pril, charlene... and all the others.

Thanks guys for being so sweet these few days when i'm sick.

Been horribly sick these few days.

Lost of voice. Sore throat . Cough. Chill. Rejection of food.

Runny nose.

But i guess the prayers work. Been feeling much better.

And charlene been complaining she would come over

and make sure i ate her porridge if i don't get some food and rest into me.

And mel for her sweet sms.

And pril for her consistent nagging.. then again, she's the mum.

and mel being the grandma would be the one giving me food

every time i pop by.

Which is seriously why i love you all.

Which reminds me i finished reading the two books that i borrowed.

Nooooooooooooo. Now i need to find more.. D:

in exactly 2 weeks, it's concert.

yikes.

My voice is backkkkk :D

Super happy..

Update update..

Sunshine sunshine.

I will be going out with jojo!!! (:

I think it felt like the sun shone

after a long drizzle.

Things are starting to turn around.

Thanks God!

UN.... i still thinking...
LF.. .arararghh.

let's seeeeee.

pril.

jojo.

winny-ism.

Lover.

LF.

UN.

Joyce.

Brother in law.

Vonnie.

so far that's it.... if not, i will be super packed.

Need to start working on my subs..

Performance in 16days :O

I feel like there is so much to do,

so little time,

yet the rush of panic seemed

only to affect me.