shall take my medicine on time...

been going really weird all morning..

well hw has been just..

Eng

2 eng compre

1 book reviews

Math

3 math papers

End of year revision

Chinese

体验compo

chinese letter

chinese book review

Lit

3chapters left

ahaha. i feel so much better now

that joyce is gonna sing k with me soon

hopefully soon bah~ woots

though it will be nice to invite all the com members

this time..

i got a new pencil~ ahaha..

just seriously start on those letters...

otherwise i will be.. well...

at least she can't torture me.. that bad..

as carmen did the last time..

can't go swimming.. gah...

and please i hope nobody ever call me during this period

i sound as though i'm croaking no actually more like quacking

according to my brothers..

my brothers are weird.. but they cheer you up when you're down

and pissed you off the next second later..

some jokes.. lame jokes apparently..

me: why are you crying and laughing at the same times??

him: haha.. sobbss.. one eye is crying.. the other is laughing...

him: don't hit my stomach.. got baby you know

me: haha.. let me help you do an abortion

him: no.. meh...

me: you're too young to have a chid.. i will be sacrificial and help you get rid of it..

me: let's do slow motion slap.. i'll slap you..

him: n..no..ooooo

and i did a missed slap and then a real slap..

him: i'm gonna be rich one day.. and i'm gonna build a bungalow and i built some room for you?

me: oh.. ok.. which one

him: guest room

me: know what i will built for you to stay over?

him: guest room?

me: nope. toilet

me: thanks for taking care of my stuff

here's your payment..

raise 5 fingers and slap!

haha!!!

i feel like an evil step-sister somehow..

posted up on OD what happened yesterday

don't feel like doing it again here..

and there is so many people reading this blog

haha. grace go read it~ just don't show it to anyone else

to you:

你值得真正的快樂 你應該脫下你穿的保護色
為什麼失去了 還要被懲罰呢
能不能就讓 悲傷全部 結束在此刻 重新開始活著

i wish you will forget the pain.. or embrace your past

to have the happiness you deserve.

tata.. i hate you!! just kidding~

like i say, i don't hate people..

oh well.. been playing piano all day

don't know.. i feel more sleepy sleeping longer

oh well but at least i'm sleeping at a regular time now

oh well... they are going jp tmr.. wish i can go

oh well LF~

are you all free on jan 9th?

if you are.. well we can hang out at my house

aaah.. sad.. carmen and jojo won't be there..

oh well.. maybe next time then

sigh.. catching cold..

i'm shocked.

do i count as a friend then?

valetta.. why do you know so little chinese songs!?!?

i will look retarded on 28...

joyce... why can't you be free?!?!

i haven't seen you for very long already...

haha.. though we always end up laughing like mad people

and people kept throwing stares at us...

but you're probably the first so called senior

i actually become friends with...

i remember you always had a very VERY hard

time trying to teach me...

ahaha.. i remember your bf is supposed to come after

me with a chopper~

i miss you a lot..

though you wanted me to be an accomplished person

like you but i guess i can't fulfill your wish

and that is something i regretted a lot.

but i can't even communicate to you

telling you i'm sorry for letting you down

you have expected the two of us to be

accomplished person like you had been

and to continue the cycle,

to teach other people.

i miss you a lot..

never mind.. i will see you in 3years time.

oh.. to this person..

listen to this song..

坚持到底

this is the #15 time i changed my blog

stop finding it!!

i won't be bothered to change anymore if you find this one.

won't be going k..

val say i'm gonna get kidnapped...

thanks people..

you make me so happy knowing i'll be blamed

if we all end up cancelling SCO #01

oh well...

i miss playing chinese songs... better return me my book soon...

homework:

Eng

2 eng compre

2 book reviews

Math

3 math papers

End of year revision

Chinese

体验compo

chinese letter

chinese book review

Lit

4chapters left

this is why i always leave english to the last...

oh why can't they work?

why do they have take so many days off?

How am i supposed to do my book reviews?!?!

i guess the ti yan compo i just write about piano...

i seriously don't know what to write..

i miss my first piano teacher...

which i can see her again though it

is not really possible..

i'm turning into a nocturnal~

slept at 6.. haha..

was listening to music till 3..

then toss and turn till 6..

before i finally fell alseep till 7.30

which is like wth.. 1hr 30mins...

i don't want wear that freaking thing.. ugh

i'll be the candle on your water~

i sang this in choir.. very nice song

though it is only sop and alto part only

still a nice song to sing

imissyoualot.

whenareyoucomingback?

whycan'tyoucomeback?

atleastcomebackforawhile

iknowimustrememberwhatyousay

staystrongandremainthehappydaphne

thatyoualwaysknew

butwhydon'tyougetit?

i'mfallingapart.thedaphneyouknewwasnotthere

whyarepeoplekeepexpectingmetobehappy

can'tyouseei'mnotthegirliwasbefore?

Just played finish 菊花台，童话 and why we sing first page.. woots..

Should start saving up money to fix the piano.. it’s starting to fall apart..

Well, gah.. cause I was sleeping on the sofa.. I had to wake up at freaking 7,30!!!

Which means only 4hrs and 30mins of sleep.. gah..

my blog is dead.. so stop reading it!!!

well.. to keep this blog kindda not so gloomy or something...

i got a soft toy dog which is damn cute~~

oh and facebook have some kindda weird problem

which does not allow me to upload pictures

thus anyone who wanna see the videos of the 2 lil angels

and me flying should just ask me~

i will be glad to show you.

hate is a strong word

and i can't hate someone.. cause i always end up forgiving the person.

the longest time i actually hated a person was a day?

oh well.. crap hell..

i don't even know whether i can go to sing k

hopefully can bah..

i don't know.. i guess tata is right... for once..

we can't expect everyone to think that way..

perhaps i am just freaking out too much

wtf is wrong with you??

isn't she your friend??

then why are you backstabbing her???

i may not be her friend but i'm getting pissed off

oh well... i should change to OD soon..

shall try not to write too emo stuffs here..

but just wanna say i read your past..

your life...

i may not understand/have experienced the same thing

but know i'll always be there

though i doubt you will know i'm talking about you here

but yeah...

on the other hand, went to china

was ok.. i guess...

i'm a carnivore surviving in a vegetarian world...

and i guess the food there grossed me out

I'm abstaining from eating duck meat..

it's just seemed so immoral now..

well.. there was twins in the tour group~

i'm closer to elis i guess..

she's from choir~~ like me!

and she's in the sop2.. haha.. i used to be in the same section as her

and i guess we got close...

the twins are sooo cute!!

relatives are coming over.. miss them..

haha.. will be playing cards which usually end up in me winning.. ^^

i miss the LF alot... hopefully i can give them their presents before new year

which remind me....

i need to get gifts for the choir people... aargh!! no time!!

we are going singing~~

i doubt it is actually a secret com outing

considering there is only 4 people coming..

and guess what? all sec2 com people~~

then we probably just crap alot..

and according to tatasauce..

they probably just laugh at me alot..

oh joy.. i'm looking forward to it already

were we once friends?

i don't get you

sometimes you're so nice.. next moment you're so...

i really don't know...

are we even friends to begin with?

I realise it the hard way

you can't have it both ways

and what did you say?

i can keep my opinions to myself

we may be similar but we are world apart

it hurt to know that i had once treat you as a friend

and to know i was never one in your eyes

Lemme hear what you're saying...

Are we still friends?

Cause all i'm doing now is running away

from your eyes

here's hoping you will never find it

lalala... i lazy to post down the rest of the trip in china
but was damn awe-struck by the art there.
well there is quote that struck me the most:

the artist is not bound by his tools, he is bound by only his imagination

i lost my pencil... booo.. :(((( still feeling very depressed over choir...hope it will fade away.. .perhaps i'm just moody during this time of year

i wish i can sing the songs of my pri sch...

who can see the wind

cantate domino

remember me

and other etc songs which i have forgotten

but i love who can see the wind...

wish they had let us keep our scores..

we began to sing... and i realise there was this man who kept taking photos...

oh well... i guess it runs in the blood..

then hugs from the a1s peeps... i feel like not going to china already.. :(

we took choir photos! claudia's mum is so nice~ just like claudia~

then carmen, xinyuan and i went with yb and her dad to the mrt..

we went around in circles lor..

xinyuan was like emoing in a corner

and i was wearing my freaking court shoes...

then we took mrt... haha.. i have another stalker now..

but she's very scary... that reminds me i need to start writing letters to people

and get ready all the gifts that i owe people...

damn touched by april's gift..

im like the yong tau foo in my family...

and im wearing 2 layers... and i'm still in sgp...

-.- i prayed for evan's flower to last till i come back

the 2 lil angels was running around the airport with the trolley.. -.-

well, have lunch with the sop2... was really disappointed in the attendance

i didn't really know what to do

well firstly i'm allowed to be crappy... i only have 4 hours of sleep

from 2.30 to 6.45.. gosh... i think i had a nightmare

where there was silence.. just complete silence

oh well i was desperate for sleep when my phone rang

grace came back!! woots!

i finally have someone to complain to!

cause if i just go randomly telling people emo stuff

they will think i'm freaking out... which i'm not

surprisingly, i reach redhill on time with stephanie

i played piano awhile, when i got my first fake flowers from yb

thanks yb

i guess while yb played, i was filling grace in on my pathetic life

we sang through once

put on makeup... eee... hate putting makeup on.. was running around...

refusing to put makeup...

we took a bus coach there...

i was shocked by how echoey the place is.. if there is such word

i was once again the heater...

cold-blooded people... evan gave flower.. so nice..

we did chipmunk version.. lip drills...

so fun hanging out with the a1s peeps

i won't say we are perfect or anything

in fact we were out of tune for a few songs

but after all the practices and to finally perform.

it was worth all the practices we had came for

all this while.

warning.

the next will be a very long post

i just come back from china

and written a travel log including the one in the concert

should have done this long time ago

oh well.. korea and hong kong would have be lengthy

ahh... i feel so terrible...

gah... I'm sad. full stop.

actually i'm more than sad..

i'm depressed/emoing/ feeling very very low..

ok.. to the point of thinking i suck alot is not really very low

but still it's enough to make me feel like wanting to just go emo in a corner

choral flourish- dynamics?

salve- the tune i guess. the lacry ma--aah

alleluia- the e note... and not going off tune.. come in on time... sing louder

diu diu dang a- practice on the ho? hey ya hey also..

da hai ah- dynamics.. and feelings i guess... airy..

why we sing- feelings?

you raise me up- airy...

joilk- sing with clauida~ it helps.. the split i guess

kalinka- the vi mei nyah...

gosh.. i'm not very confident in singing in tune..

and i'm very easily influenced... ugh..

http://arthursclassicnovels.com/arthurs/wyndham/thechr10.html

for those who actually take lit next year,

you will be put to sleep by the 2nd chapter itself

seriously it's damn... and we're gonna be stuck with it for 2 years

oh and val found the da hai lyrics translated into eng:

http://www.32lu.com/qupuxiazai/liuxinggequ/200706/29382.html

in case anyone is thinking..

e does not stand for evan...

oh well, today was fun.. in some freakish sortha way

in a way.. i beginning to enjoy choir more...

like it gone back to last times..

yay~

anyway, looking forward to section lunch on sat

please let there be more people.

the last one was just pathetic.. :x

freaky how i'm always complaining my choir tee is too big

when it is like the same size like almost everyone else

oh well... i still can't believe my shirt got "stolen".

oh so was my shoes... for that matter..

my bros got their haircut!

they look like perfect devils from hell darling lil angels.

sigh.. guess we're not running at all this whole week.. >.<

i think the thing is still with that damn e note...

and i realise that if i don't fix it soon..

i'm gonna die for almost all the songs.

dammit..

note to caramel/carmey/carmen: I'm not a duck/daffy's wife etc. I'm just plain daphne.. and i appreciate very much if you don't treat me like a heater nor scare me from behind. thank you.

you know e..

i probably feel even more useless than you..

at least somehow you have like the support and all

the facial expression..

which i totally lack

and you can like lead... even if it means goofing around somehow

you still managed to lead...

and i don't think i will ever want to do that

just that the senior's words keep holding me back..

Then again, you should really do something about

them listening...

sigh..

oh well... there's section lunch to look forward to~

i really want to sing better and be stronger..

but things don't really happened what they want

oh why did we become so distant..

where there is no more words exchange than those necessary..

where the only thing binding to us together is the once upon a time..

when we spoke.. all we say was fine, thing's are ok.. they are alright

pour your complaints, i'm willing to listen

but you shut me out with just this sentence

that i won't understand.

what won't i understand when you won't even try to explain..

we used to be so close..

and we used to talk about almost anything under the sky

but when did we grew so distant

where the things we had is now once upon a time..

tell me what happen to those times.

i realised that there is this strange thing i had to

go ramble away to other subjects..

like we can be talking complaining about something

and i will just go like, "you know, i love lollipop.."

then i get weird stares..

today, there is only one word to describe it.

*exhausting*

well, i'm still trying my very best to anchor my notes and think low..

but honestly, i can't really do the e note.. like i will go either too low or sharp

but usually it is easier to sing higher notes for me..

aahhh... i don't know what do leh..

i feel so useless...

oh well, mustn't give up..

just 8 days away..

is that what i truly am?

a quitter?

it sucks knowing that in the eyes

of people, you have no place.

and you know that

you basically are not strong at all

no support, nothing. zitch.. ditto.. nadda.

i just feel like slapping someone..

or at least just emo in a corner..

i really don't know what to do.

today just put me off.. in a totally horrible mood.