one thing i learn, one should never swim when it is

1) just after a heavy shower

2)terribly sick

oops, i did both. No wonder i feel like dying.

To add to the fact, it's been months since I've swim -.-

But i felt happy that i finally get to swim. Amen to that.

It was raining so heavily i had thought i wouldn't be able to swim.

Thank God for answering my prayer. (:

Had fun during tuition scaring Lp, it's mean and all

but her reaction was hilarious. =P sorry joes.

I feel like a pile of homework is there and

no motivation to touch them at all.

My dreams are getting weirder. Still sick.. it's already more than a month

sigh. I miss all of you. T___T

Lord so mighty

I'm bound by Your embrace

who could ever ask for more.

All we could do is seek Your grace

Lord fill us all with joy

Let us be Your laborers

and pour forth the faith

We will shine like no others

for we live to serve only You

For we are just humble servants.

Tightly woven together

Show them Your mercy

Let the blind eyes be open

Let them see Lord what I see.

Your never ending mercy

Your never ending love

Your never ending peace

Your never ending joy

Our never ending faith.

Amen.

When you smile, the world stop and stare

Just the way you are.

When you smile.

The whole world stop and stare for awhile.

Went back, reminiscing the past.

Somehow, it seems only a few months

i had left here, and it changed so much.

I miss it. All the running about

the swings. The aviary. The only school

who has it. The rabbit in the pond.

Just looking at the waterfall and be calm by it.

I miss it. The library that has been my comfort.

The canteen where i would be dragged around aimlessly.

The laughter that rang through.

The in between lessons where we used to peek and smile.

Basketballs. Floorball. I miss you, wgps.

The camps held, the tears we shed here.

With Wisdom & Grace

At West Grove, we march on with our peers
Together we achieve through the years
We build, we shape, we declare
What we have, we learn to share

Chorus
Wisdom and Grace
We totally embrace
With Wisdom and Grace
We will win the race

With one heart, one soul and one mind
With renewed faith, upwards we will climb
New heights, new hopes and new dreams
Together we achieve as a team

I miss the times. The only thing i ever had
to worry about was not get in trouble
with the teachers for beating someone up..
where i met my tuition gang. Gpp.

oh well, back to main point.
went to collect results.
was disappointing,
hung in the air, was still the same thing
results.

Really, as if the only thing that ever
is look into a child, is he/her performance
on academic wise.

You're amazing, just the way you are

Run and don't look back.

Straining to seek something familiar.

With one's capacity, i can do not much
It will never be filled.

Was it a push or a pull?

Seek out not the cause

but deep within.

For maybe you have already

gotten the answer.

Run but don't look back.

I felt like i was doing physics

while i was on the bus = =

I feel so much better already.

But sick again,

i think it's been getting close to a month..

oh well.

December's gonna be hectic

I miss lifegroup D:

I miss UN. Brother-in-law >:

Tomorrow results day

Gambatte to D.

Oh, wonders will cease where masks start to fall. Beyond that door, lies eternal lies

Concert was awesome.

Hectic yes. Maybe cause the job scope, had

to do the make up, hair style and all. But still i love

yesterday

Succeeded in taking everyone in choir :D

Performance was so-so i guess.

Climb every mountain was shaky, the voice parts were rather uncertain.. and I can't seemed to feel the song that well :/ and wasn't really doing a good job at it..

Ants summer. It was okay i guess. Just that the dramatic just wasn't enough... the solo parts didn't really stand out..

Salve regina... I thought this was the worst. The quality and depth just wasn't there. I think last year performance i put in more depth into it... or i think that's what it is called...

Every time i feel the spirit. This song i felt it the most i guess during the concert. and just do some kind of facial expressions which i hope means that i'm actually showing what the song means.. . still the song wasn't really strong..sounded weak...

Hahaha. i think all the songs quite weak... But it's over so can't do much. Probably just have to train harder for syf next year and we'll see how...

Finale was epic.
But other than that, i had fun running around, fretting over my hair.. it keeps coming off :O

Went out with the lifegroup :D
Was funnnn!!! Heee got flowers too.

sam drove us to eat. I didn't know he drive.

Went home..

wanted to have like a marathon to talk till wee hours.

but the spray sting my eyes and wanted to rest.

and fell asleep... Sorry mama!!! D:

If today was a fairytale, let this day never be ruined by logic

Trust is a

-double edged sword

- a piece of paper

-a mirror

-a candle

-an onion

Today drained me out.

Somehow I feared that this would be how we end it.

And i was the cause of it, and i couldn't do anything

to make it better. But words said can't be retraced.

I meant each and every word i say.

People hurt all the time and we just have to find those

who are worth the hurt.

Hurt people hurt people.

Learn that in church.

you probably never knew the tears that had been shed

i ran out of energy to convinced you otherwise.

Perhaps This is it.

But i never wanted it to end this way.

I'm not them. Why can't you believe me just once?

What irritates me the most is the fact

that i can't even tell others why I'm even feeling this way.

The unmixed sadness, had it all started with the memories

which always end in tears. I don't know why

but things are getting better, but the more they are

the more i have to hide. And to know i have to hide is

making me even more upset. The whole complexity of it all

I had told her so

When the doors start closing one by one,

that's when the real horror starts.

As voices creep in one by one

threatening to drown the very self in.

Silence begun to play its tune

The walls are closing in

can anyone hear

Banging on the walls

Trying to get out

but too afraid to even try

She can't hear,

She screams

When the doors closed

The horror begun

Chained by promises

Burdened by one own tears

No one can hear you dear.

Don't bother.

All the whimpers.

They serve no purpose

See that girl

I told her so

She will end up this way

If she had only listen

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DI DI

The day before 11-11

I was stood up.. for a very long time.

I took from Green to Red to Green to Purple

Congratulation to me. I actually wore a dress

Disgusting.

We had like a plan lor!

go daiso get rubber band.. and a box.

Eattttt cause i was hungry. the pics are epic (Y)

onion rings~~~
super funnn.... :D

Went pet shop and i think i was squealing too much..

but the hamsters were adorable..

Then i guess we just walk around,

and took pictures.

HAHAHHA But i love the part where we

just sat on the wooden boards and start

drawing. (:

Seem pretty short to describe how that day went

Starting to learn song from secret garden.

Choir was funny today.

HEEE.

Ate cookie and cream cake. super nice :D

Winny-ism~

I think i freaked out when Em just came up to me

and said duck. daffy duck.

I think i scream too much.. which really didn't help my voice at all.

Section is getting more bonded :D Though i think it's more of

the same people coming every single time.

I think i started having a coughing fit.

the whole altos were like looking at me..

cause i think i really had difficulty breathing

and my cheeks were pink, eyes tearing. the usual.

Sat down for awhile before the conductor caught me sitting down.

Apparently she didn't heard my cough at all.

They were like laughing lor.

Afterwards, it's just been me trying to disturb the juniors

and the conductor keep asking me to do something about my cough.

But she praise me today :D Super happy.

Said my singing was quite good when i'm not coughing. -___-

Heeee then caramella just spend the journey home

arguing whether i was having an affair.

Love today. tally : 16 need to sell : 5 more

8more days. Please let my cough get better.

1 thing I learn today.

+Accepting is one thing. Pretending you accept when you haven't is another. That's being hypocritical.

A chess piece is a chess piece.

In this black and white world,

It just serves its purpose,

to be used and even used as a sacrifice.

To serve its player its only use.

To win.

What then if the chess piece turn against its player?

Really tired. will post abt what happened soon.

But went out with brother in law.

Was fun nonetheless.

She actually managed to make

me do the impossible.

I learn two things today

+Jealousy is a sin

+Expectations destroy everything.

I've been trying hard. But i realise the harder

i try, the more i pin to myself that i would be able

to achieve.

Slight disappointment would just caused me

to falter.

Because of you

I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side

So I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust

Not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

I had fun today. Yes, fun do come with choir.

I just forget that it actually exists.

But it was nonetheless.

The chat during lunch, the attempt to do court case

to serve as a pleasure, I miss those days.

The warm ups, where we go around

jumping, singing with all our might

cheeks flushed.

The sectionals. Our hysterical laughters

Trying to bring our voice forth

and sing the impossibly high notes

keeping in pulse and in tune.

Concert positions. How we argue

But it bring back so much

Carrying keyboards.

Touched once again.

Hands working together.

The journey home would

always change

Tug of war ensued.

10 more days.

新推陈新。惦记只是提醒

还是能把我从白云中

掉下来的，还是一样。

只有一句，而那时

我已走而不回头

I just realise this blog has been one year old.

Congrats me. I have a blog that long which

i haven't delete.

HAH to the stalkers
( if there is still any left.. but the usage

of stalker has been exploited and used usually by people

who think too highly on themselves shown on urban

dictionary. check it up)

Been having many powerful encounter with God.

Ohh... and been trying to follow HBHM. which hasn't been working at all.

Sorry rach and mel.

But seriously, it's freaking me out till it even came in my dream..

eating maple syrup with berries... which is probably

caused by mel making me eat cereal. I'm serious.

Though i think my dreams are always weird

and usually there are always links,

if i was thinking of someone, or have a fight,

you usually have a higher chance in my dreams..

and i was complaining about sleeping earlier yesterday

but no choice, a promise is a promise.
Plus i would get killed by pril.

Then there is wearing wigs.

I think i cannot and will not look nice in those.

I tried like that time, one day stand with italy

which is horrible. we just end up laughing at

the epic fail of me wearing it, and

jojo freaking out.. thinking we fainted in the toilet.

Decided to keep it long~~ A promise between

brother in law and me.

Seriously we should be twins instead.

We share the same taste for so much stuff.

Music. Clothes. Accessories.

Best of all, she became like my daily update feeder.

Like a manual twitter.. then again,

i don't tweet so much.. and the only reason

i actually use twitter now is well.. lifegroup.

other than that, i prefer sms and msn.

Which suit me just fine, since there is no word limit and all.

Count down with pril, charlene... and all the others.

Thanks guys for being so sweet these few days when i'm sick.

Been horribly sick these few days.

Lost of voice. Sore throat . Cough. Chill. Rejection of food.

Runny nose.

But i guess the prayers work. Been feeling much better.

And charlene been complaining she would come over

and make sure i ate her porridge if i don't get some food and rest into me.

And mel for her sweet sms.

And pril for her consistent nagging.. then again, she's the mum.

and mel being the grandma would be the one giving me food

every time i pop by.

Which is seriously why i love you all.

Which reminds me i finished reading the two books that i borrowed.

Nooooooooooooo. Now i need to find more.. D:

in exactly 2 weeks, it's concert.

yikes.

My voice is backkkkk :D

Super happy..

Update update..

Sunshine sunshine.

I will be going out with jojo!!! (:

I think it felt like the sun shone

after a long drizzle.

Things are starting to turn around.

Thanks God!

UN.... i still thinking...
LF.. .arararghh.

let's seeeeee.

pril.

jojo.

winny-ism.

Lover.

LF.

UN.

Joyce.

Brother in law.

Vonnie.

so far that's it.... if not, i will be super packed.

Need to start working on my subs..

Performance in 16days :O

I feel like there is so much to do,

so little time,

yet the rush of panic seemed

only to affect me.