Swiftly it pass,

overlapping, twirling through

it's as if it has a life of its own.

We had just been passengers on

a train, ready to get off at any time

or were we running for the race

that doesn't seem to end.

are we the birds in the cage

trapped yet willed to sing,

are we the peacocks

on display and mocked?

are we the lily

that has been through the

worst conditions and

come out so beautiful

are we the pots and pans

that has been heated

at such high heat

to withstand all cracks.

no, we are all just pebbles

standing still

as we watch life passed by

memories flow through us

like the river,

but we are just pebbles.

Jesus, You saved me from

a life i will not want to go back.

Thank God.

I'm grieving for my lost voice.

Today seemed like miles apart.

Rush of wind blew my hair into frenzy

Breathing began to hasten at

irregular beats.

Errands after errands came,

it just blew one into this hole,

where i literally feel super tired at the end of it all.

Sight grew blurry,

but still i went for church :D

iLife. iForgive. iAccept. iServe.

Living life God's way

Today is just a day

where i should have stayed home

to rest and then go church :D

Almighty love

I'm not alone
No longer afraid
With You
By my side

Days grew old
Time has flown
But Your love
Will never fail.

All I have is
You, by my side.

Awe so mighty love
Awe so mighty heart
With You
We'll soar

When we fail,
You will be there
To bring us up

Awe so mighty love
Awe so mighty heart
With You,
We'll soar

When we fall
You will be there
To take us
through it all

Far and beyond
Lay Your love

Awe so mighty love
Awe so mighty heart

I never expected myself to enjoy today

Really very fun today :D

Running here and there,

bursting into laughter,

with not so familiar faces

yet the same nostalgic hit me.

hee.

Choir surprisingly was fun ttm.

I actually felt more into the songs

this time. Memorize done.

Still don't think we would ever be ready

Went out with V.

Laughing hysterically

and making weird noises.

I had thought i will never

had such again such memories.

Then again, you're not my world.

2 more days and my throat isn't

getting better. At this rate,

I'm going straight to church

It wasn't a cruel joke,

it was just another test to see

whether I will put faith in You.

Like any other fights I had,

I always run to You,

pleading with You to take it all away.

You know those cheesy lines

where they say their world crash.

mine didn't. thank God.

It just hailed, massive ice blocks.

Pardon the style, i tend to use it

when i'm upset, and

it usually means writing poems.

which i did. 3 of them.

though the themes were

rather morbid and sadistic,

oh well.

it just popped up.

If i look into Your eyes,

Will i see my past flash

Before Your eyes

Will I open up to You

But i know.

You have come,

Once again,

To show me all that You could.

You have come,

With all Your love

to walk me through it all.

Your never ending love

Make me fell to my shame

Of my sins.

I will never choose to conceal

I will never choose to run

I will always put in in Your faith

You have come

Once again

To show me all that You could
You have come

With all Your love

To walk me through it all.

I'm weak, yeah

But Your love bring me high

I'm weak, yeah

But my faith in You

will never erase.

You have come

To show me all that You could

You have come

With all your love

To walk me through it all.

Jesus, I belong to You.

Piece of papers, marked in black ink, written all over the place, it used to carry meaning, doesn't it?

I lay on my desk, eyes shut,the world zoom forward. I look up with, river flowing down.

I just stared at the emptiness and the irony of all things.

An aged old candle, standing tall,

its flame burning, so painfully.

Its warmth and light

to people, it might seemed not much

but to a person who had lived her life in darkness

it had mean as a support to her.

Yet as she clung on,

she was stung by the wax.

Time and time again.

What if she had mistook the flicker of the light

It had been her tormentor

and her savior.

So she comes to a halt,

her burns, those are scars.

yet, she still hold on,

till the last flicker.

Then she realize

she was the mockery of it all.

Results were horrible.

Choir.. I don't know..

It's seemed like right now,

i'm scared of myself, in fact.

That i will blow up one day

like a dynamite.

Yell out all the frustration,

and just break down.

Then there were times I just

think i should curl up,

the vulnerability inside,

and put on an empty shell.

Light in You

We have come

Because of You

You have shown us the light

We can see.

You have shown us mercy

We can be saved.

Your endless love

Was what kept us going.

The world will fall

Yet we will still be here,

For we know,

That You know,

We will soar.

Beyond the horizons.

No matter the fall.

I see You

I see You

I put my faith in You

With all my heart,

Jesus, You are the light

That shine through all the storm

Your fire burns

Lit by Your love

We are saved

I'm sortha having this thing going with brother in law.

to make sure that i don't use that word... and the money goes

to the treat i'm treating her :D so right now it's 40cents. D:

Time spent were rather on the journey there, yet we have our fun

so no complains there.

Ok.... some updates...
I'm currently booked for this 2 weeks :D

Today was funny and touching.

A friend complimented me on my singing :)

She's so honest and direct, to hear anything nice was just..

(though i though i screwed up and sounded pitchy)

had talks and talks... it's rather draining.

I realized i tend to look too attentively...

the speaker just threw his attention at me..

and i was like okay...

Next talk,

was funny cause meena and brother in law,

was supposed to help me find out what animal i am..

they had so many comments~~

So i'm a lamb...

minus calm and quiet... which is really (Y).

Class pictures were awesome!!!

Though it's going to cost a bomb...

going out with them, and we're going to scream

our lungs out...

"wait.. did you just put on braces.."
"uh no.."

"when did you put on.. last month?"

"uhh.. last yr april.."

Greek, you rock.

let's play see saw and scare Germany out next time.

I'm in love with mel's song. Who You Are

I let v listen, she agreed it's nice!

yay~~

just today we were talking about is it possible

to get the both world of money and happiness,

and during chinese tuition, i really got quite

a shock. Cause the passage itself was on that topic.

It's not the first, i just didn't really take much notice

of it.. but hope that it's You trying to communicate to me.

these days i just find writing poems so much more meaning

maybe it's caused I try doing it with You by my side.

Going to church this week. Excited!

Result tomorrow Groan.

Choir... no words.

Musical Evening in 1 month time.

A song always say many words,

It speaks for itself more than anything.

Tears sprung the wells,

the dried up season

long thought to have turned to bitter cold.

Yet something inside burns even more,

the fire consume it,

Realization never struck harder,

how much You meant to me.

You see me through,

even when I had foolishly

led my path away.

I was found back

Through Your constant urge

I begin to seek

I begin to understand

A song brought forth what

was deep inside.

Not written out of consideration

Just held deep within

the season that had turned

the well that had dried

I begin to see

More of what You

want me to.

You taught me so much

Yet hungry I am,

thirsting for Your every word

The songs that sang praise to You

The people that has changed their lives

Because of You.

This is my words.

My praise for You,

Lord.

-amen-

it seems without caffeine one can't go far anymore.

But surprise, i went all the way to 4am.

I know i say it a lot of times,

but it seemed that this time i'm more willing to give

it all the very best to move on.

"Life's a race, there is never a time to look back,

but it's okay to take short break in between"

I seek the Lord that He will go through it with me,

I do not seek Him to take it all away,

I know that some things are not to be taken away,

I just pray to have the strength to go on,

Lord, I know that if I have a chance, I will

relive my life, with nothing to change,

For I know each and every one of them

is sent by you so that I will be stronger as a person.

Thanks Lord for always being with me,

even though I had not recognized You till now.

Your love and mercy for all of us is boundless,

Lord, thank you.

-Amen-

Been having weird dreams.

"btw, does my dream make me feel like i'm a psychopath?"

"YES."

"-.-"

such friends

"wait till next year, i will be struggling like crazy and I have syf to deal with"

"Muahahahahha"

"LOL. Devil horns pointing out"

"Ya! On your head! I knew it"

I'm looking forward to going out! :D

The power of one

You must always remember

Life can be a challenge
Life can seem impossible
It's never easy when so much is on the line

But you can make a difference
With courage you can set things right
The gift to dream and make dreams real
Is yours and mine

The power of one
Begins with believing
It starts in the heart
Then flows through the soul
And changes the world
Imagine how life will be
When we stand in unity
Each of us holds the key
To the power of one

Each of us is chosen
There's a mission just for you
Just look inside you'll be surprised
What you can do

The power of one
Begins with believing
It starts in the heart
Then flows through the soul
And changes the world
Imagine how life will be
When we stand in unity
Each of us holds the key
To the power of one

And one by one
We can make the world a much better place

The power of one
Begins with believing
It starts in the heart
Then flows through the soul
And changes the world
Imagine how life will be
When we stand in unity
Each of us holds the key
It's inside of you and me
Each of us holds the key
To the power of one

Defying gravity

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'm through accepting limits
''cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost

Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you won't bring me down!
bring me down!
ohh ohhh ohhhh!

two songs that I had fallen in love with.

You brought me higher, but at

a greater cost, i had fallen,

thus i had learnt to defy gravity

and sing.

I felt rather exhausted after the whole ordeal. Swirling deep down,

was that guilt that i could end up doing so horribly i will probably cry buckets.

But of course, I won't. I'll probably just do some weird random thing

till well when all hell broke loose.

I will spend days recuperating after sending my cells to war zone.

But thanks to church friends (: I feel better already.

hahaha. but i doubt i will burn it. It holds too much for me to burn

still. It got to stop. Somehow.

So i'm just gonna get a mental block from any school related stuff till further notice.

Bleh. I really do not want another episode of me screaming, that's what happened in amath i think.

I had that crazy fetish feeling to jump up from my seat and act like a mad woman,

and hopefully they will let me retake, thinking my mental capacity at that point of

time was due to a malfunction. Oh well.

I can't believe though, i'm alienating myself just to make sure it hurts lesser.

Remind me of crucible and chrysalids.

OKAY. I won't talk about it.

Looking forward to tmr!

Ps; Just so to make you happy, i ate duck meat today. bleh.

I knew it sucks. Eating it again just confirm it.

A post nonetheless.

It was a risk I took with no regrets,

all was said, the joy we brought.

sparkling from the ashes, a gem like none,

lies within a fatal crack.

That's just all it needs,

a flaw, and it stands imperfect.

it burns flamingly,

waves may cool its feisty ways

the crack line may be exposed

after some wear and tear,

but it remains something

etched in the heart.

Some say it could be

left abandoned,

in the ashes.

For it is no longer perfect.

There are lines of imperfection.

So we shall bury it

deep in

to the ashes.

Letting it glows

beneath the ashes.

Bittersweet stitched up in one day, wonder whether the decision to come had been right.

Yet farewell are a must, and we have to bid goodbyes one way or another.

PE was funnnnn. :D We played like murderer and detective.

HAHAHA. lao shi say it was like her grandmother generation.. damn mean.... D:

she was like telling us we can wear gowns to the assembly.. so funny!!

look like we are all down there, as one,

worshiping the sun. Doing some sort of ritual for rain or conjuring spirits..

gosh crucible.

thennnnn oooh did cards :D

HAHAH. though i think they'll kill me for handwriting. oh well.

Bring in chairs. Make noise. Evil line is violent.. true evil in its raw form.

Honestly i applaud the enthusiasm one could actually achieve.

Gave my cards :D

But some of them say can't read... trying to make them blind HAHAHA.

I watched my angel going there receiving award

a tug at the heartstrings.

Then again, I'm probably used to it.

Went out with pril after that.. took pictures. Quackkk.

Bless that i still could keep contact with her.

sighhhhhh missing them already.

And i thought the farewell in choir was horrible,

This is it. The last day.
I will miss them terribly. Not that this is getting better.

still.

It does not make it better one bit.

I can only remember... the choir peeps.

Where we really enjoyed those day, dancing to the rhythm, laughing over stupid jokes, or just being there.
Mutual reliance, when have we start to falter?

Cruel time to have taken our short lasted joys.

some last words.

paperplane- your enthusiasm is infectious. i remember you always as this sweet lil person who sleeps during lessons. Haha. No, a girl who loves soft toys, rationalize and i see the gentle sweetheart that lies within.

asianhitler- your highness is rather someone i had always never though i could talk to, but surprise always come, you joke, your last advice i will keep. Don't disappear into the wind for too long.

beloved qm- I was rather a tornado no? always running up and down carrying the keyboards. I remember soughing your advices for presents, and it was funny to see the ending. I complain to you over the plight, and you always managed to bring a smile to me. Thank you.. I'll miss you.

joey- you quit at such.. thanks for always being there. We have such great fashion taste. Go out soon promise yeah. Miss the fun we had together, talking the most random stuff.

dada- I love to see your annoyed face, and your expression is priceless especially when i poke you. I have come to miss you too, being a part of my life where i used to bully play with.

zuo min, mith, zine, pearlyn, big claudia- i don't really talk much about you. Yet without you, nothing remains fun, and i miss you all so much.

meow- what do i say? I said all i could. Still treasure the time, but i have let go. Thanks for being there though.

mama- i miss scaring you, bullying you, playing with you. Yes i do admit i gave a lot of problems to you, i even dislike you at a point, but you have turned to someone i can fully trust without fail, the second closest senior to me, though we will part, but we do know it's just awhile yeah? Love you. quack

Sighhhhhhhh

如果你也听说

I'm in love with this song..

i fell asleep D: Sucks.. I did all i could to keep myself awake

then i realize the only way i kept myself awake was to draw :D

so that's what i did, paper 2 i draw... and it was damn funny XD

done with ss. Almost done with chem....

and i will do geog today!

Don't rain on my parade, it's no longer yours to own

I will be seeing you again, maybe we'll be strangers then.

Walking past each other, without a word.

The tears won't fall again,

All I see is just a new day

Maybe that day won't come. For i lost

more than just my smile.

Like a paper,

once crushed,

never again the same

But i will be the sunshine

behind those clouds.

I wonder maybe the stress is causing my mood to be rather irrational

irritable, and jumping to conclusion.
It seems that sarcasm laced with words.

Perhaps then you will see no matter what.

Lies are better served cold.
I guess hurtful words thrown out are never retracted.

such nice comfort. Only to be fooled in the end.

What a lie.